Sad...

So the emotions have piled up..I'm not sure where I stand, I just know I'm hurt. It's like one thing bugs me, and I fight with it internally. I'm pretty brutal on myself, and usually get very angry if things don't turn out the way they should. Then other things will pile on..only making it worse. Towards the end of it..I'm an emotional wreck, feeling like crap, and hoping to hear some words of comfort.

So...I'm going to try to write them all down in hopes of getting them out of my head:

1. I need to tell my parents of my current relationship situation
2. I need to stop pressuring myself so much
3. I need to stop others from putting more pressure on me
4. Judging someone for their actions is my middle name, and I don't regret it. Thinking of the whys for this is ridiculous..as my answers are pretty rude but true
5. Sick of hearing the parents say get your tickets to come home
6. Friend of mine a post-doc I knew died this weekend in a car crash..I knew his wife too
7. Found out a good friend of mine who I looked up to for advice is getting a divorce
8. It doesn't help that the shit that bugs you is also shit that bugs your friend and she only reinforces why you hate that shit to begin with

There..I think I got most of it..excluding the lab stress that I always have.