I have this constant fear. I don't know how to describe it. At times I think it's so stupid and superficial..yet there are days it eats me up alive. I try not to think of it..but it gets the best of me at times. Some days I sit there waiting to just hear it, and have it be known. Other days I think HELL no. I know there will come a time, I might have to bite my tongue and take it..All I know is that it's going to be hard :(